disillusioned

i am disillusioned,
stuck on the treadmill,
going nowhere fast.

it needs to be about me again.

i am disillusioned,
i lack inspiration,
creativity,
a muse.

i need to start doing things for me again.

i am disillusioned,
i know everybody,
everybody knows me,
the realization that they’ll never let me in.

politicking,
power games,
celebrity and manipulation.

the best players are in a clique,
the court is a graveyard for a joker.

i am disillusioned,
this can’t be life,
there’s gotta be more,
there’s gotta be more!

i am disillusioned,
out of moves,
backed in a corner,
i am doomed.

i am disillusioned,
life is a hoax,
fixed with the winners already picked.

i am disillusioned,
stuck on the treadmill,
going nowhere fast.