GANGSTER III: The call of the void

GANGSTER III: The call of the void

So intrusive, the call of the void. I am thinking crime, conditioned to think that’s the only way somebody like me can get ahead. I watched too much TV to know it never works out. You can never break bad even if you are Gustavo Fring because a master manipulator like Heisenberg is in the background, pulling strings detonating bombs! Even if you avoid explosions and ignite them verbally like Saul Goodman they ultimately result in life imprisonment because you are sneaky, dishonest, a co-conspirator, a shape-shifter, silver tongue devil, a scumbag criminal lawyer!

The call of the void, so intrusive, destructive. I am thinking crime but I have watched enough Scorsese to know it never works out, even if you’re Henry Hill who aspired to be a gangster all his life. Cadillac’s and double-breasted suits and you are never secured. Living a life of paranoia, death can come from anywhere, a volitile existence, your murderers come with a smile. Once Goodfellas and now you gotta rat on your friends, it’s bye-bye if you don’t – you’re gonna get whacked!

The call of the void, so intrusive but it never works out even if you are Anthony Soprano. Rose from a soldier to a Capo, to the boss! Living the dream life in a mansion with a pool with your childhood sweetheart Carmella and married with two wonderful children. The crown is heavy, it’s difficult to be number 1, you are a constant moving target, other gangsters want your crown, plagued by constant nightmares, you are a mess psychologically, trust issues and once in a while you have to shed blood to maintain the peace or you will get toppled. No room for weakness. You still die in front of your family in the end and the screen turns to black before the end of your favorite song.

The call of the void, so intrusive, I am thinking crime but that never works out even if you avoid the wire and still run the streets with your shotgun like Omar Little, the legendary cocksucker. Mr. Rob drug dealers, it’s all in the game. The tune of his whistle and everyone in the streets scatters like flees. Induces fear and is respected by the most hardened criminals. Rock solid reputation. Still got taken out by a kid, a nobody because he doesn’t fear him nor his reputation – the new ushers out the old.

The call of the void, maybe Marlow, took out Proposition Joe and won his battle with the Barksdales but lost his muscle to jail. When he came out, the world had moved on, the streets didn’t know who he was. Despite his ruthless disposition and taking out all his competition, he didn’t leave a lasting legacy, couldn’t build a self-sustaining reputation – he became another player in the game who was at the helm for a while but fell off.

Call of the void, so intrusive, I am thinking crime like the Godfather but I could never be like Vito Corleone. A reasonable man, practical, patient, fair but ruthless. A master of human nature, a strategist who plans a 100 moves ahead, an immortal who survived five shots. He knew “the black hand” was phony, he settled for less money, he is not a real mafia, he threatened Vito with the police, where’s the code of Omerta? He is taking chances. Vito played the fool to catch him off guard and took him out to begin his ascent to the top. Vito Andolini Corleone, suffered the death of his father, mother and eldest brother to the mafia, the Don. Escaped to America, made a life for himself, rose up in rank, avenged the death of his family by later killing the Don and became the boss of all bosses of the criminal underworld. He died an old man playing with his grandson in his tomato garden but also lost his eldest son in a hail of bullets.

Call of the void, so intrusive, I am thinking crime but that never works out even if you are Tony Montana and think the world is yours. The cocaine gets to your head and you think you are invincible! You kill your best friend Manolo and a rival, Sosa sends assassins and kills your sister Gina. On top of the world because of the cocaine but you die in a hail of bullets in the fountain pool of your mansion – Sosa did tell you not to cross him!

Call of the void, so intrusive, I am thinking crime. I need money, I need to start a family, time is in a hurry and I am not getting any younger.

Rise ’76: The Story of June 16th — A Theatre Experience That Refuses To Let You Look Away

There are productions that entertain. There are productions that educate. And then there are productions like Rise ’76: The Story of June 16th, which reach beyond performance and become an act of collective mourning.

Currently staged at the Market Theatre, this devastating and deeply human production reconstructs the horrors of June 16, 1976 — the day school children marched against the forced implementation of Afrikaans as a medium of instruction under the apartheid government’s Bantu Education system. What begins as youthful resistance slowly descends into panic, violence and death. By the end, the audience is emotionally shattered.

Writer and director Tiisetso Mashifani wa Noni approaches the material with extraordinary care and urgency. The production understands that June 16 is not mythology. It is not a chapter in a textbook. It is trauma embedded into the DNA of South Africa. The play captures this with frightening intimacy.

The audience laughs early in the performance. There are moments of warmth, humour, innocence and youthful rebellion. The children dream. They tease one another. They speak with the fire and optimism of people who still believe change is possible. This is what makes the tragedy unbearable. The production deliberately allows the audience to fall in love with these young people before history crushes them.

Then the gunshots arrive.

And everything changes.

The sound design by Jannous Nkululeko Aukema is terrifying in its realism. Gunfire erupts through the theatre with shocking force. The screams are immediate. The panic spreads from stage to audience. In those moments, the production abandons theatrical comfort entirely. The audience does not merely observe violence — they feel trapped inside it.

Children are hunted.

Children are shot while running away.

Children as young as four years old become victims of a state that viewed Black education as a threat.

The production never sensationalises this brutality. Instead, it exposes the machinery of apartheid with brutal honesty. The police are not abstract villains here. They are agents of a violent system protecting oppression through bullets, intimidation and terror.

The cast delivers performances of astonishing discipline and emotional precision.

Alex Sono’s Bafana Buthelezi carries the emotional pulse of the production. There is vulnerability beneath the courage, and the performance beautifully captures the fear hidden inside youthful resistance.

Botlhale Mahlangu’s Alfie Ndlovu is deeply affecting, filled with spirit and innocence. The performance reminds the audience that the uprising was carried by ordinary children who simply wanted dignity.

Sbuja Dywili brings heartbreaking humanity to Melody Moloto, grounding the production emotionally and reminding audiences of the families destroyed by apartheid violence.

Zilungile Mbombo’s Sergeant Joseph “Razor” Tladi is chilling in authority and presence, while Ben Albertyn’s Constable Nicholaas De Villiers embodies the cold machinery of apartheid policing with frightening restraint.

Deon Lotz commands the stage as Lieutenant Colonel Theuns, portraying institutional power with unnerving realism, while Mfaneli Ntumbuka’s Kleynhans adds another layer to the system of intimidation and control surrounding the uprising.

What makes the ensemble exceptional is their ability to inhabit multiple characters seamlessly. The transformations happen in real time. Voices shift. Physicality changes. Energy transforms instantly. One moment a performer embodies humour and tenderness; the next, they become agents of terror or victims of unimaginable suffering. It is elite theatre craft.

The production moves with cinematic urgency, yet it never loses its theatrical soul.

Leopold Senekal’s set design is deceptively simple but emotionally loaded. The stage becomes classroom, township, protest route and battlefield through fluid transitions and carefully constructed spatial tension. The design never distracts from the performers; instead, it amplifies them. Every corner of the stage feels haunted by history.

Franky Steyn’s lighting design deserves enormous praise. Light becomes memory, fear and violence. Sudden shifts plunge scenes into chaos, while softer washes of light preserve fleeting moments of innocence before destruction arrives. During the protest sequences, the lighting traps the audience inside the confusion of the uprising itself. It becomes impossible to emotionally escape.

Noluthando “Texture” Lobese’s costume design roots the production firmly within the period while also preserving the humanity of the characters. The uniforms, civilian clothing and police attire become visual reminders of apartheid’s hierarchy and violence.

Yet perhaps the most devastating element of Rise ’76 is its connection to real people and real death.

No image from June 16 is more iconic than the photograph of Hector Pieterson — the dying thirteen-year-old boy carried by Mbuyisa Makhubo while Hector’s sister, Antoinette Sithole, runs beside them in anguish. The photograph, captured by photojournalist Sam Nzima, became one of the defining images of apartheid brutality and shocked the world.

The production understands the weight of this image.

It understands that Hector Pieterson was not merely a symbol. He was a child.

And it understands that even the man who carried him, Mbuyisa Makhubo, would eventually disappear into exile and tragedy, never fully escaping the trauma of that moment. His fate remains one of the painful unresolved stories of the uprising. Sam Nzima himself faced harassment and restrictions from the apartheid government after taking the photograph that exposed the regime’s cruelty to the world.

The play honours these histories without reducing them to museum pieces.

Instead, Rise ’76 asks urgent questions:

What happens when a government fears educated children?

What happens when language becomes a weapon?

What happens to parents forced to bury their children because those children demanded dignity?

These questions linger long after the final curtain.

That is the true achievement of this production. It does not simply teach history. It resurrects emotional memory.

The audience leaves emotionally exhausted, reflective and deeply moved.

At the Market Theatre — a venue historically intertwined with resistance art during apartheid — this production feels especially powerful. The theatre itself becomes part of the storytelling. Every silence inside the auditorium carries weight. Every gasp from the audience becomes part of the performance.

Rise ’76: The Story of June 16th is not easy theatre.

It is painful theatre.

Necessary theatre.

South African theatre at its absolute best.

This is the kind of production that reminds audiences why live performance matters. No film camera can replicate the tension of sharing physical space with performers recreating one of the darkest days in South African history. No screen can duplicate the collective silence of an audience processing grief together in real time.

The performers do not simply act.

They carry memory.

And they do so magnificently.

Congratulations Tiisetso Mashifane wa Noni and the whole team for a great show and a deserved standing ovation.

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Interpretation of dreams

Interpretation of dreams

Ever since I started reading “The Interpretation of dreams” by Sigmund Freud, I have a relationship with my dreams. I am understanding myself a bit better. I should keep a dream journal. The dream as wish-fulfillment. The dream I had today was interesting. My interpretation of the dream is one of fatigue. In the dream I was walking long distances, I am with someone, female, identity not clear but we get along. We both walking but we are fatigued. The act of walking long distance is not a sacrifice, we both love it but we are still fatigued. Something has to give, we can’t keep doing this, there is no reason to keep doing this, there is no incentive to keep doing this, love is not enough, we can’t keep walking, we are fatigued but we are still cheerful and happy.

Intuitively I understand the dream, I’ve been feeling so limited. Feeling so boxed in and disillusioned with life and everything. I do feel fatigued, I can’t keep walking the extra mile. I can’t keep putting people over when they turn a blind eye to my needs. I am fatigued, I am tired. Why do I feel so tired? I think I feel undervalued and unappreciated.

My friends recently went to Durban and they left me behind. I didn’t have the money to take the trip but that can’t be the determining factor. They had transport, they had enough. They left me behind. They never would have done that in the past. It’s like there’s a bridge between me and them and I can’t get over. I don’t feel close to anyone anymore. This bridge is frustrating! It’s a metaphor for my life, I can’t get over and make money in my professional life and yet I am still walking. There’s something in between, hindering me from getting to my destination. It induces feelings of unworthiness, I feel stuck, I have feelings of shame, I am isolated, I have no connections. I am tired, fatigued, nothing I do is bringing the desired effects, even my lifelong friends are indifferent towards me. I am cool with not having gone to Durban, I wouldn’t want anyone to harber secret resentments towards me because I went and didn’t pay – that would be so horrible! However, the trip did have an impact on my thoughts and apparent dream.

I do think the dream is addressing my people pleasing tendencies. It’s a big saboteur, it’s draining me and hence the fatigue. I may secretly yearn for validation from others and hence the cheerful disposition from walking long distances despite my fatigue. The dream is both literal and figurative. Oh Freud, what a mess!

Sweeney Todd

Sweeney Todd

At the Centurion Teater for the murderous, bloody Sweeney Todd. A dark twisted, methodical, sadistic, blood spraying, cannibalistic musical masterpiece by Scenario Productions. The first couple of rows and splashing zones, people are dying, blood will be spilled, put on your plastic body suit provided by the theatre. A lot of people perished, one after another, music in the background, singing dialogue, spotlight on that dreaded seat, a barber in the guise of providing a service slits your throat. Nonchalance, a pleasure to dispose of you.

Sweeney Todd is a barber in Victorian London who murders his customers with a straight razor. He works above Mrs. Lovett’s pie shop, and together they dispose of the bodies by baking them into meat pies sold to unsuspecting customers. His motive is often revenge — usually against a corrupt judge or official who wronged him and destroyed his family. The lighting dark and spooky. It was raining in real life, the theatre was wet, it enhanced the experience, what a day for theatre!

Music Director Luigia Casaleggio held the show, the conductor, her presence was felt.

The performers were amazing, the choruses, the show had a opera influence. They were singing dialogue, dancing and simultaneously acting. The costumes creative and scary. In and out, the performers walked in and out the auditorium, creating a sense of unpredictability. No one knew what to expect, it was a hell of a ride!

The performers:

Brett Kruger – Sweeney Todd
Ashleigh Hilton – Mrs. Lovett
Kyle Cronje – Anthony
Mbali Hlomela – Johanna
Ntsikeng Matooane – Beggar Woman
Tiaane Kirsten-Lubbe – Adolfo Pirelli
Erish Jordaan – Tobias Ragg
Christian Martinez – Judge Turpin
Wilf Mahne – Beadle Bamford

A truly wonderful show with a lot of imagination, enthusiasm and creativity.

Congratulations Tiaan Kirsten-Lubbe and Lian Sachse for a great show and a deserved standing ovation.

📸: SamSays

Snowball

Snowball

Buffet had Kay and I have Sam, sure I am not Buffet but boy am I lucky! Always dreamed of a Kay Graham when I was reading through the pages of “Snowball”. Kay was great, she was powerful, she had influence and everybody loved her – Buffet was impressionable, eager, bright and destined for greatness. His teachings are right, thank God I idolized him.

Operate with a margin of safety,
have an inner scorecard,
stay within your circle of competence,
read books – any type of books,
boring is good,

you’ll never be rich if you’re normal
and always think long-term.

I am not exactly a millionaire but he was not one till 32. To my credit, I am surrounded by millionaires, I just have to put two and two together and stay on that wavelength and then I’ll get my first million. He had Benjamin Graham, that speeds things up. I am not Buffet, he was good with numbers, rational and an MBA graduate. I was horrible at maths, I lost a lot of money on Forex (pure speculation) and a University dropout. Still, facts are facts, Berkshire Hathaway was a mistake, he was emotional, he screwed the other guy because the other guy was trying to screw him, leading to a bad business decision. Berkshire was still a fading and failing textile business, he got played. Lemons to lemonade, he stripped Berkshire of its assets and kept it, altering its business model and practice.

Buffet had Kay and I have Sam, even the names roll easy on the tongue, I am blessed. Sam introduced me to high society and the best people in the world. I dreamed and fantasized about this when I was reading through the pages of Snowball. I am not Buffet, he had a great wife, two wonderful children and an established home. Yes, they stayed at his parents for a while but they eventually moved out. I just have “antakalipa”. There’s still a lot I have to get right, I am well behind. My Snowball is accumulating speed and mass.

Buffet had Kay and I have Sam, I love Sam like how Buffet loved Kay. I dreamed of this when I was paging through the pages of Snowball. Taught me “with great power comes great responsibility” a simple one, Ben Parker, a quote you take for granted when you are Peter Parker and one you never forget as “Spider-Man”!

As you turn 30, you lose confidence in yourself and ideas. The world even pushes you to the side, your spirit gets sucked out of your body, you become the labels society assigns, you become the accumulation of your past years. I worked hard to be the person that I wanted. I worked hard to be an individual. I chose my path, I walked alone. I never wanted to fit in a construct. I want my fate in my hands. I chose “antakalipa” to be what defines me. I will serve millions of people around the world, it’s my destiny. I’ve been following the teachings of Buffet since my 20’s and now my Snowball is a rolling boulder, gaining traction and momentum, becoming bigger in the process. It took a while, I am a value investor. There will come a time when I’ll be unstoppable. This has always been the plan.

Buffet had Kay and I have Sam, I dreamed about her as I was paging through Snowball. Warren Buffet by far, the biggest influence of my life.

Teacher Gertrude

Teacher Gertrude

When I was in school, I used to collect “full attendance” certificates. I came to school every day even on the day’s when I wasn’t writing. Marking the register was always priority. Exam season, we would be like 4 or 5 in the classroom, I didn’t care, it was cool. We didn’t have classwork, the teachers were liberated and you basically got a free pass to go anywhere. In the 3rd grade my teacher got pregnant and was replaced by a substitute teacher “Miss Gertrude”. Teacher Gertrude didn’t like me at all. She thought I was ‘stout’, mischievous and loud. I did all my classwork and homework but that was not enough. She used to weaponize the prize giving ceremony against me. “Do this or you won’t go to prize giving. Shut up or you won’t go to prize giving”, it got stale and lost all potency. Her threats stopped being credible, they weren’t based on anything real so they didn’t change my conduct. She would scold and shout at me. Prize giving season came and legible students got invitations, true to her word, I didn’t get an invitation, I was not going to prize giving. It didn’t hit me too hard because I knew I’d get a “full attendance” certificate. I’d been perfect all year, no missed day. Teacher Gertrude took that away from me too. She said I’d been absent for 1 day, I pleaded my case and advised her she was mistaken but she said the register doesn’t lie. I was fully present under Mrs. Bosman for three terms and I happen to miss one day under Miss Gertrude? How nice. A stain on my record. She didn’t mark me on the register. I was fuming. The first time I had ever felt injustice. That year I attended every day of school for nothing! No certificate, no recognition, just nothing! There were days when I could have missed school but I didn’t because I wanted that certificate. I went to school every day only for the substitute teacher to void my year. Teacher Gertrude took away my full attendance certificate! There was no ways of telling too because you only got that certificate on the last day of the school year. I was genuinely thunderstruck when I saw that 1 day absent on my report card. Mrs. Bosman why did you have to get pregnant and leave me with Teacher Gertrude? Everything was great, you introduced me to poetry but then you were pregnant and everything changed! Teacher Gertrude was the first person to teach me human nature. You can take prize giving away from me but don’t deny me of my full attendance certificate. Denying me of full attendance is diabolical because it’s blatant, you see me every day, it’s a lie, it’s unprofessional. If it weren’t for poetry, I never would have gotten anything that year. You didn’t win Teacher Gertrude, poetry exonerated me.

I was always disappointed with Teacher Gertrude but I forgive you. I have always been a bit of a perfectionist, Mr. Hyperacheiver, only now I see that it can be used against me just like how Teacher Gertrude once did.

When I was class captain, I strived to do things the right way. My numbers were always perfect and I made sure teachers signed the register after every period. I was exemplary, the administration side of the office loved me. I still went to school every day and I never cheated anybody out of a “full attendance” because I know how it feels. You didn’t win Teacher Gertrude.

That’s Entertainment

That’s Entertainment

Folie a deux is actually a masterpiece. It’s all in the name, a delusion shared by two people. Arthur Flecks life is a mess, he knows he messed up, he knows he is going away for a long time. He disassociates, he doesn’t live in the real world anymore. He is cooped up in his own world, he is disillusioned with the real world. No one treats him like a human being in the real world. He finds an escape in a girl who idolize’s “Joker”. His shadow finds an outlet and expresses itself. “Joker” manifests himself in the real world, he finds a stage and for the first time in a while, Arthur feels alive again. His “Joker” persona makes him feel alive and it makes sense too, when he is Arthur, he is dark and disillusioned with life but as “Joker”, he has on a colorful costume and make-up. “Joker” is who he wishes he can be but he doesn’t acknowledge that he is “Joker”, it’s all an act for him – entertainment. He doesn’t see and understand “Jokers” darkness, this makes him a stranger to himself. For him being “Joker” is an escape, he is stuck in a rut, he is depressed, he still hates himself because that doesn’t go away and “Joker” makes him daydream about life. When he puts on his costume and make-up, he can put on a show, the world is a stage, he can do anything, he can be anyone but that’s a delusion because we still live in a real world and he is trialed for murdering 5 people, 1 on live TV and 6 if you add his mother. When he fires his lawyer and defends himself as “Joker”, he doesn’t see the gravity of the situation, he puts on a show, the world is a stage, he is so delusional. Who could blame him? His love interest perpetuates and enhances this delusion, she enables Arthur, she gives him an escape, an avenue for “Joker” to express himself, she also dons her costume and make-up so she too can be “Joker”. Arthur thinks this girl is there for him but she is only there for “Joker”. When Arthur denounces “Joker”, the delusion stops and she goes away. She was never real. Arthur denies his shadow and it ends up murdering him because he can’t see it. It’s a delusion of two, Folie a deux but this is also a sequel.

The biggest criticism of the movie is that it’s a musical but that’s entertainment. It’s a creative decision and it’s still a psychological thriller. How else are you going to depict Arthur’s delusion and state of mind. He is literally locked-up, he is disillusioned with the world and it wants to kill him. He can only daydream about a better existence. A musical shows us his frame of mind. “Critically acclaimed” is usually jargon for realistic and accurate – the first movie was that in abundance. It chronicled Arthur’s life in a way that was believable and his dissent to hell made sense observing his character arc. The sequel explores his state of mind, his shadow is not something that is hidden anymore, it’s in the open and Arthur gives it a platform. The shadow is not logical, that’s why a musical is perfect. Musicals have illogical time frames and they are delusional in nature because they don’t happen in real life. Folie a deux = delusion shared by two people, it’s also a sequel (2) and Arthur is murdered by his shadow (his second self). This was clearly thought out, if this is not genius, I don’t know what is. Maybe the sequel was a money grab, you could certainly make a point and say it didn’t warrant one but that’s entertainment, the world demanded it! I do understand the backlash because I was initially one of the guys who pushed back. I didn’t understand, I needed to suspend my judgment and finish the damn movie but I was scared they would tarnish the legacy of the first movie and they didn’t. This is definitely a polarizing movie but as a student of Jung, I will defend this sequel to my last breath.

The box office and awards are not always everything, the product must have soul and integrity. It cannot pander to widespread perceptions about what it should be. The vision is the vision. The Director is also the writer and producer, he understands the source material better than anyone, he created it. It’s literally his story-world, to think it could have been done better is arrogant. Sometimes the media catches on and the audience loves it garnering you acclaim, awards and fortune and sometimes its a miss. Win or lose, the product still has to have soul and integrity. The story continues on Folie a deux and it is told in the best possible way. If you don’t see it, you don’t understand the premise of the movie. This was always shadow work that’s why Joker has mass appeal.

disillusioned

disillusioned

i am disillusioned,
stuck on the treadmill,
going nowhere fast.

it needs to be about me again.

i am disillusioned,
i lack inspiration,
creativity,
a muse.

i need to start doing things for me again.

i am disillusioned,
i know everybody,
everybody knows me,
the realization that they’ll never let me in.

politicking,
power games,
celebrity and manipulation.

the best players are in a clique,
the court is a graveyard for a joker.

i am disillusioned,
this can’t be life,
there’s gotta be more,
there’s gotta be more!

i am disillusioned,
out of moves,
backed in a corner,
i am doomed.

i am disillusioned,
life is a hoax,
fixed with the winners already picked.

i am disillusioned,
stuck on the treadmill,
going nowhere fast.

Behind the Crimson Door

Behind the Crimson Door: A World of Illusion, Fear, and Becoming

There is something unmistakably electric about stepping into The Cirk. It is not merely a venue; it is a threshold. The moment you cross into its space, the ordinary dissolves and something heightened, almost mythic, takes its place. Time loosens. Reality softens. You are invited—no, compelled—into a world where the human body defies its own limits and imagination takes physical form. Watching Gert-Johan Coetzee’s Behind the Crimson Door in this environment feels not just appropriate, but essential. The Cirk is a place where impossibility becomes language, and this production speaks it fluently.

From the outset, the show establishes itself as an immersive spectacle. Aerialists carve shapes into the air with impossible grace. Acrobats suspend disbelief as effortlessly as they suspend themselves mid-flight. Bodies twist, stretch, and split against gravity’s expectations, forming a kinetic poetry that is as precise as it is breathtaking. Dance blends seamlessly with vocal performance, while fire punctuates the stage with both danger and allure. Every movement is intentional, every transition choreographed into a flowing tapestry of motion. It is not simply performance—it is total theatre.

Sound plays an equally commanding role. It does not merely accompany the action; it envelops it. The audience is drawn inward, cocooned within a sonic landscape that deepens the sense of immersion. Once inside, there is no outside. The world of Behind the Crimson Door becomes complete, sealed, and self-sustaining. You are not watching a story—you are inhabiting it.

Visually, the production dazzles. The costuming, designed by Gert-Johan Coetzee himself, is nothing short of extraordinary. Each piece feels alive with intention, evoking the opulence and theatricality of Moulin Rouge while maintaining a distinct identity. Fabrics shimmer, silhouettes exaggerate, and textures provoke the imagination. The costumes do not simply adorn the performers; they transform them into embodiments of the world’s themes—desire, fear, seduction, and transformation.

At its narrative core is Charlotte, a small-town dreamer whose ambitions stretch far beyond the boundaries of her upbringing. Drawn toward the promise of the Big City, she steps into a world that dazzles and overwhelms in equal measure. Yet what unfolds is not a straightforward tale of ambition fulfilled or broken. Instead, the city becomes a psychological landscape—a projection of Charlotte’s inner world. Its lights are her desires. Its shadows are her fears. Its excesses mirror her anxieties about losing herself within it.

The genius of the production lies in this duality. The Big City is both real and imagined, seductive and threatening. It pulses with life, yet feels unstable, constantly shifting in response to Charlotte’s perception. This surreal quality transforms the narrative into something more introspective. It is not just about a journey outward, but a confrontation inward.

Guiding us through this labyrinth is Violette, the narrator and former seamstress who has witnessed the unfolding drama. Her presence anchors the story, offering both distance and intimacy. Through her, the narrative gains texture—a sense of memory, of reflection, of quiet understanding. She introduces the recurring motif of doors, each one symbolic of choice. These doors are not merely physical objects but metaphors for the paths we take, the risks we embrace, and the fears we either confront or avoid.

As Charlotte moves through these symbolic thresholds, the production deepens its philosophical resonance. The tension builds not from external danger alone, but from the internal struggle between courage and fear. And when the revelation finally arrives, it lands with quiet power: the fear was never in the world itself. It existed within the dreamer. In this moment, Behind the Crimson Door transcends spectacle and becomes something profoundly human.

The performances themselves are nothing short of exceptional. Danica Bezuidenhout brings a vulnerability and strength to Charlotte that grounds the fantastical elements of the story. Her portrayal captures the delicate balance between wonder and apprehension, making her journey deeply relatable. Cheree Simpson, Claudia Moruzzi, Phillip Kleynhans, Carmen Jooste, Mohamed Ambaram, Zenzele Letsoela, and Kimona Moodley each contribute with remarkable skill and presence. Whether suspended high above the stage or commanding attention on the ground, they embody the physical and emotional demands of the production with unwavering commitment. Their work is not only technically impressive but deeply expressive, turning every movement into storytelling.

Direction by Joanna Pawelczyk ensures that all these elements—performance, design, sound, and narrative—coalesce into a unified vision. Her guidance is evident in the seamless transitions, the clarity of the storytelling, and the balance between spectacle and substance. Under her direction, the production never loses its emotional core, even at its most visually overwhelming.

Ultimately, Behind the Crimson Door is an experience that lingers. It reminds us of the power of imagination—not only to create beauty, but to shape our fears. It challenges us to consider the doors we choose to open, and the ones we leave closed. And in doing so, it reveals something quietly profound: that the most formidable obstacles we face are often the ones we construct within ourselves.

At The Cirk, where the impossible becomes tangible, this message resonates all the more deeply. The performers defy gravity, but the story invites us to defy something even more difficult—the limitations of our own perception. And for a moment, suspended between air and insight, we believe we can.

celebrity II: Clout

celebrity II: Clout

Making viral content that stretches across all fours like a tent. Clout, likes, shares, eyeballs anything for that content. Will use my kids to get likes gimme, gimme, gimme! Degenerate, attention seeker, will sell my mamma for some views. Can never be content with that 9 to 5, provides life without substance – content. Content is king. Dopamine infested existence, chasing a thrill, a high, virality, clout, shock value, sex! Celebrity, celebrity would do anything for the views. Insight disrespect and cut queues, I am on a stream, 50000 views, 50 million more and I’ll be living my dream. Bot clique, manufactured social proof, 6 million followers but no engagement. Pay attention to me, look at what I can do, I’ve got a big ass, I can dance for you, subscribe and see my cat, it’s pink!

Controversy, shock value, disrespect, violence, clout, everybody can be famous, anyone can be a celebrity. The death of mainstream has destroyed civility. Talented people used to be the celebrities, now it’s all clout. Celebrity, celebrity, has no value if everyone is one. Ruled by algorithms, hey, relax guy – I am sure you are big but I don’t know you. Celebrity, celebrity, has lost soul, lights dimmer, unhealed trauma simmers and hopes for dinner. How can you create something timeless when you are chasing clout? Steam hovers to create baseless clouds. Reign doesn’t shower to sustain a legacy. Attention, recognition, fame, thrill, money – a hell of a life! Celebrity, celebrity, everything was always fabricated, the media, press and larger than life personas. Bot clique, manufactured social proof, 6 million followers but no engagement. Kayfabe is dead, proceedings transparent, costumes off and make-up out of sight. Creating a generation of people always in character, in a role for the light. You can do it too, put up a fight. Celebrity, celebrity, has lost all value. Hey, relax guy, I don’t know you, the death of mainstream has made you another guy. Celebrity, celebrity, doesn’t do anything anymore, everyone wants to go viral, everyone wants to be a celebrity.