I know aligning and associating with me is difficult. I represent everything repressed and unconscious. I am vulgar, explicit and at times offensive. My words have a lot of salt and can cut deep. It’s my sense of humor, it’s all wrong and I put bad guys on a pedestal. I understand why the industry recoils, I understand why anybody would recoil. I challenge and dare you to look! I represent humanity’s darkside and repressions. Let’s be real, if I had a prominent seat I’d probably get cancelled. Oh yes, I am the cancelled type. Regardless, it’s my perspective and these are the stories I want to tell. I don’t want to be cool, I don’t want to be anyone’s role model, I just want to be. For me being the consciousness of culture entails telling stories in my own voice even if it makes people uncomfortable, angry or otherwise. So I am at a crossroads, try to appease the industry and hope they will accept me despite the fact that I am a long shot or carry on being the controversial, undesirable “antakalipa”. I really like “antakalipa”. I am going to choose “antakalipa” – consciously. It’s okay, the industry can turn their backs on me, I understand. Maybe I won’t be rich, maybe I won’t collaborate with industry greats, maybe I won’t get the resources, maybe I will be shunned, maybe I won’t amount to much, but I will tell my stories, I will share my perspective. I choose me and my controversial take. I choose antakalipa. I am already a long shot, I am already an underdog, I came this far, I have to carry on, I bet on myself despite everything, even if it prolongs the journey, even if I don’t succeed, I choose antakalipa. Love me or leave me alone, I am not changing for anybody. Don’t do me any favors, you can leave if you want to. I choose antakalipa.
I am on top, its not surprising. I’ve gained the weight I’ve lost to level the playing field. I am in great form, I’ve beaten them all, my competition in the rear end swallowing my dust, cause they always thought we were head to head but I was checking the rear ever since. I’ve beaten them all at their own game, I reflected back who they was. Cause it’s all about consciousness, no person will do you dirty without conscious intent. It’s done on purpose, to keep you dependent on them, to make you suffer, to humiliate you. It’s doublespeak, they say they love you but they don’t give a shit about you. This is about power plays, egos, control, respect and subtle dominance. If you let it go once, it’s going to happen again because it’s a learned response, that’s why you gotta double down or crush the behavior completely. They take advantage of your kindness, they don’t respect you, that’s why you gotta set an example. Strike the Shepard first and the lamb will disperse, make God bleed and everyone will perceive him to be mortal, my nigga, always send a receipt to someone who requires your services. A lot of people are repressed that’s why you gotta deliver that consciousness, a hot slap to the face with fingers imprinted usually solves the case. Nobody will ever mistaken you after that, both feet on the brakes before turning that corner cause people forget who they dealing with sometimes, “shut the fuck up and know your damn role”! Receipts, receipts, receipts, you gotta hand them out, some people think their shit don’t stink and you gotta bring out the air freshener to purify the air. How you gonna black ball me when my balls are black? How you gonna invoice me when I sent all your shit back? I’ve beaten all you niggas, I proved you not on my level, I’ll beat your ass again to echo that you are not on my level. Receipts, receipts, receipts, you gotta hand them out, no free lunch, deliver so it sticks, so no motherfucker takes advantage of you. If you swelling up, I’ve got the remedy to make you calm down, that’s fists, let’s go! If you can dish it up then you can take it, no exceptions Mr. Ultrasensitive and privileged. Receipts, if you can’t dish them up then don’t play the game because you’ll be a target and you won’t be able to pay up, rendering you useless and defaulted. Receipts, receipts, receipts, I’m narcissistic too, I also don’t care and we can leave it to die too. If you want beef, I’ll serve it on a platter, let’s go chief! Receipts, I bring it all day, all night, I reflect you like a mirror.
If you had to, who would you banish from the confines of your mind. Who would you completely erase from your subconscious mind? If you didn’t meet them, would your life be better? Would the decision alter the trajectory and quality of your life? Would you then find the urge to follow your dreams? To make the best out of every moment you are handed. Are you willing to start afresh, to start anew and this time on your own terms and conditions? Would that make your happy? Who do you wish you never met? Is it your boyfriend? Is he boring and emotionally unavailable? Is it your girlfriend? Is she needy and insecure? Is it your friends and the lifestyle you have chosen? Is it your mistress and her crazy antics and unpredictable behavior? Who do you want to off like a button and live in an enlightened state. An illuminated state where you realize the importance of orientating yourself to your dreams and goals. You are the most important thing in all of existence and your livelihood and state of consciousness is paramount. Who would you cast out like a demon and liberate your mind. Which neural connections would you sever in order to construct better pathways? Pathways that enhance existence and lead to self-realization. Who do you need to relegate in the recess of the dark abyss to maintain order in your life? Who do you need to forget, to discard like rotten fish. Whose ordour is so unbearable that you need to leave the room? Whose energy kills like doom? Look at your life. Inspect your decisions. Cancel subscriptions from features that don’t show in your life. Move on. Carry on. Forget. Let time pass in between. Forgetting is bliss. Forgetting is preparing for the future. Things that don’t meet your current standards are the stale past made to wither like leaves in autumn. Spring ahead and witness your life blossom. Forget people who don’t think you’re awesome. Forget the mistakes of the past. Forget what could have been. Be present and look at everything unfold before your eyes. Expand your horizon and look farther. Stretch your imagination. Explore. Create new memories. Forget everything that isn’t making you grow, reside in a bubble of bliss and optimism; eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.
Love yourself right now, at this moment, at this second. Love everything about yourself. Love your big eyes, your big ears, your big forehead, your small nose, your slanted small eyes, your big lips, your rectangular face, your large hands, your small feet, your fat ass and your small breats. Be content with everything you are. Be grateful to see the beauty life has in store. Be happy to attract happiness in your life. Make it a deliberate practice to be happy, to love yourself. The world mirrors and reflects our thoughts, so think positive thoughts to attract positive outcomes. Our thoughts are energies that become concrete things in the objective world. We are what we think about most of the time. You are responsible for everything that happens in your life, everyday, every time, 100% percent of the time. Everything is a consequence of what happens inside of you. Everything is within you. Zithande and the world will love you. Respect yourself. Treat yourself like loyalty, someone with pedigree and affluence to attract that in the world. Treat yourself like someone who matters. The answer is hardly out in the world. You are where you are in the world because of your choices. It’s your fault you never became what you always wanted. Zithande to control your self-image and to switch your paradigm. Zithande to increase your self-awareness. On a fundamental level we are all energies who inhibit a biological system. This biological system is the default, it is a given, hereditary from our long ancestry line that descends from primates. Our biological bodies are a product of the lottery of life. We don’t choose who we are, where we are born, our social class or who our families are. Love what you have. Embrace who you are, cherish your culture, beliefs and customs, be grateful for your current circumstance, be grateful for your friends and your family, be grateful for life. Make the best out of life. Forgive your parents, they don’t know any better, they are just like you. Understand that life is difficult and don’t waste your time and energy on things you can’t change. Feelings of low self-esteem, anxiety, depression and stress are a waste of thoughts, time and energy. Plastic surgery or other techniques to modify or alter your body and facial features may promise a new start to your fabricated reality but it is an illusion, a deception because it doesn’t emanate from within. You will never find happiness, you will always be dissatisfied with what you have or who you are. True change happens from within, don’t look for solutions in the external world from problems brewing internally. Live in the present, forget the past and let the Universe deal with the future. Zithande, love your beautiful melanin skin or your bright, golden skin. Love your natural hair or that scar on your face. Love the frikkles on your face and that birth mark on your neck. Walk talk with your stiletto heels pushing that ironing board behind. Love your round figure or the fat in your body. Zithande, master yourself, search for answers from within, believe in yourself with blind faith, be positive to attract positive outcomes, flourish, dominate and be the best that you can be! Go out in the world expecting to win. The world is happening for you and not to you. Let the world bend to your rules. If someone doesn’t like you – tough, you are not changing for anyone. Be unwavering in your conduct and values. Zithande, love all of you without any conditions or contradictions. Anything you want in the world you can have if you just love and believe in yourself. Don’t wait for the world to confirm what you already know, Zithande. The world can’t tell you who you are or how to feel. Social media can’t dictate your worth. Never let anybody steal your shine. When your voice on the inside is more profound, clear and loud than the opinions outside, you have mastered your life.
What is a human being? My best response would be biological mechanisms that navigate reality via vibration. At a fundamental level, we are awareness experiencing reality via our senses. We still don’t know what consciousness is or where it’s located. However, we are not our thoughts but they do define our map of experience and constitute reality. Thoughts come and go and are detected and modulated by the mind. The mind is like a receiving station for all your thoughts. We construct reality based on the thoughts we accept consciously or subconsciously, so whether you think you can or you can’t – you’re right! Thoughts are everything, that’s why things like vision boards work because they program the subconscious. When you say the right things about yourself to yourself, it gets reinforced by the Universe and you will progress in whatever field. Conversely, when you say bad things, you will be miserable, residing in Hell. Everything is information and vibration. Reality is made up of your most dominant thoughts and actions. Programming your mind with positive affirmations like “I can, I must, I will”, “I am successful”, “I am abundant” changes your vibration and attracts everything to you. If you control your thoughts, you are God, for you control your destiny.
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