Cape Town is calling my name again, I don’t believe in coincidences, it’s synchronicities, I read Jung.
Everything is deliberate, nothing happens by chance, the Universe speaks in codes. So I am listening.
Cape Town is calling my name again, it’s personal, it knows my first name, it wants to know if I am game.
Started off as whispers, I didn’t think much of it, but then started taking my best friends, first Stumza, then Phimza, all in the same month.
Cape Town is in my head again, it happened for the first time, then a second time, the third time is an omen.
The Universe has a secret language, you just have to learn to decode it.
Cape Town is calling my name again, angel numbers are everywhere, things are progressing beautifully, my energy is connected to the pulse that moves life, life is good.
Cape Town is calling my name again, wants to know if I am ready for the shift, to reply quick and make it swift.
Sure Cape Town, I am game.
I don’t believe in coincidences, it’s synchronicities, I read Jung.
Monsters lurk everywhere in the world and it’s hard to spot them. They have learned to camouflage themselves in the darkness, it engulfs and consumes them, blackening their souls turning them into shadows. Analytical Psychologist Carl Jung explains that human beings carry within themselves both elements of the good and bad, that we are both angels and demons, sick, demented, evil, dark, spoiled. Because we live in a world where we have to co-exist to survive, we surpress these undesirable qualities relegating them into the shadows. Unchecked the shadow can grow to consume our personality and rule our subconscious minds enabling us to act unconsciously. Our shadows can turn us into psychopaths who lack empathy and thrive on destruction. The shadow can enable the individual to be narcissistic, egoistic and maniacal. Shedding a light on our dark sides helps in controlling the shadow. Acknowledging you have a dark side keeps the shadow at bay. Life is a balance of both the good and bad, of the light and the darkness. We are both polar extremes of the same spectrum. You are a killer and a murderer, human nature says you are. You might find pleasure in murdering your brother in cold blood. Cain certainly did when he murdered his brother Able to spite God. The murder was premeditated, he felt no remorse, the action liberated him. I know I am bad, I am capable of savagery and genocide. I may even take pleasure in torturing and tormenting you to appease my dark side. Your suffering might even give me comfort. Am I another Jeffrey Dahmer? Would I drug you, strangle you to death, masterbate over your body, have sex with your unconscious body, dissect and sever your body parts, skin the flesh from your bones, cook and eat your body parts for dinner? The capacity for evil in a human being is unfathomable. Maybe I am not familiar with my own darkness. I don’t know what I might do to you in the right circumstances. The story of Jeffrey Dahmer haunts me because he did it time and time again. A serial killer with a death toll of 17. No one was safe, from boys aged 14 to adults aged 33. He butchered his victims, cut off their limbs, drilled holes in their skulls and injected hydrochloric acid, severed their heads and preserved them in the refrigerator, inserted the bones in the oven to burn them and then crushed them with his sledgehammer, he cut his victims into pieces and then boiled them, he cooked his victims and he ate them, he ate them! He used acid and other chemicals to burn the skin of his victims skulls to preserve them. He bleached the skulls and if they were too weak he pulverized them, some he kept and used when he was masterbating. He felt no remorse, it was a compulsion for him, he was conscious of his actions, he knew what he was doing, he wasn’t crazy or diagnosed with some sort of mental illness, he consciously experimented with his victims bodies in his own words to create zombies, he loved doing it, it was his vocation. I don’t want to believe that I am as wicked and evil as Dahmer but I know it’s possible. To deny this is to repress my own darkness and wickedness. To know I am capable of such darkness frightens me. I hope Jung and Freud have an answer for somebody like Dahmer. Maybe it is the ID out of control. Sigmund Freud explained that the ID is the seat of both the repressed material and the drives, to which had been added to the unconscious fantasies and unconscious feelings, notably guilt feelings. Expanding on this idea, Freud states that the mind is divided into 3; into what we call the ID, Ego and the Superego. The Superego is the watchful, judging, punishing agency in the individual. The ID is self-gratifying and amoral and the Ego is the middle ground of the two and strives to be moral. I don’t think Freud and Jung would understand an individual quite as complicated as Dahmer, to try and understand somebody like Dahmer is impossible. I mean he seduced and lured his victims to his place, drugged them, killed them, cut them and sat with the stench of their decomposing bodies. The smell was second nature to him. Sometimes psychology is not enough, perhaps this is a genetic thing, maybe his the exception in the family tree. When he was finally caught he didn’t resist, he was compliant and told the whole truth, every horrific detail, where he hid body parts, how many he had killed, the hearts, biceps, legs he ate, when the killing spree commenced – everything. He knew what he had done was evil and he asked for the death penalty that was not granted because it was banned in his State. He was accepting of who he was, he was not bothered, he was not haunted by ghosts and demons, he was not remorseful, he even had fans who corresponded with him in jail, fans who projected onto him their undesirable feelings, desires and fantasies and he reciprocated back that energy. Jeffrey Dahmer is your definitive example of a monster, he scares me. Maybe I am just scared of myself.
Our brains hallucinate reality based on our senses. This is what we learn from neuroscience. It makes the best guess on the objects that are present. The neurocircuitry helps it with decisions. In making decisions, the mind checks for what is familiar, it looks at patterns, colors, the texture etc. It’s not 100% accurate, it has the capability to deceive, in fact it does this quite often. What this means is that nothing in the world is certain because our senses are not reliable. There are things we can’t see, things we can’t touch, things we can’t smell and things we can’t hear. We are limited and constrained. And even with our limited resources, nothing can be viewed from the same point because we all have different angles. The neural pathways formed in our brains required data that was enforced through repetition and experience. How we were brought up and who our parents are count immensely because they represent an area in our subconscious that it repressed. Repressions are embedded in everything we do. They define us to the core. It is who we are. Could it be that the people in our lives are illusions and that they are fabrications of the mind?
According to neuroscience, we are connected to a frequency. Like a TV connected to a satellite dish or Internet for your computer or smartphone. Our minds are receivers. We are not consciousness. We receive consciousness through a frequency. All of life is connected to a frequency, one that comes from one source. This analogy has been around for decades. Psychoanalyst Carl Jung stated that every individual has a consciousness, personal unconsciousness and collective unconscious. The first two are self-explanatory but the third “collective unconsciousness” is the consciousness that is shared by every living organism. This of course means we are a product of one source. Human beings are more similar than they would like to think. Jung continues and states that the world is made of “Archetypes”. An archetype is a typical character, an action, or a situation that seems to represent universal patterns of human nature. An archetype, also known as “universal symbol” may be a character, a theme, a symbol, or even a setting. We are all an archetype of something. All of our behaviors are predictable. The first city of AI will be built on the principles of the collective unconscious. What we will need is a supercomputer and a massive cloud storage system. All the interactions of the AI will be stored in this storage system enabling the AI’s to learn from one another in a form of deep learning. With thousands of AI’s connected to this storage system mistakes will be minimized and with time the city will be perfect and completely autonomous from self-driving cars to robot servants in our houses. Like robots we are connected to a consciousness system.
The beauty in seeing someone immersed in a craft – that means his attuned to that frequency, he is one, at peace. Artists and sports people are such beautiful creatures. But not just artists and sports people, life and professionals as a whole, people who have dedicated time to be great at something – people who are one with the frequency of the world. The beauty of life overwhelms. We don’t know where consciousness comes from but our best guess is the brain because it processes large quantities of data but we don’t have proof, amazing isn’t it? How can we be sure of life? We are basically AI machines with deep learning antennas. Human beings are programmed. Programmed by our environment, nature, culture, society, immediate families and peers. We are taught to behave, to think and to navigate reality. How different are we to AI? We have awareness, something that is far from reach for AI. We created science as a means to dominate our environment, to conquer the world, to create and be Gods. Who preceded us? Could it really be natural selection? Can science solve all of the worlds problems? Do we have freewill? It seems as though our reality is in crutches. Things are never as they appear because truth is subjective and our senses deceptive. With that said, how can we navigate our way through the world without going crazy and giving in to nihilism?
Doing what comes natural to us and connecting to our frequency. While we are not AI connected to some cloud storage system. We are connected to nature. We are nature. Leonardo Da Vinci expresses the very same sentiments with his Virtruvian Man drawing. It expresses that man is perfect. Man is the golden ratio of 1.618 that appears in all nature and deep down we know what to do and who we are because we are nature and we have a purpose. All of life is one, connect with the life frequency. To master the art of living, you have to be like water – assume formlessness. Do not force things, go with the wind and it will give you the momentum needed to attain greatness, to fulfill your destiny. Critically acclaimed musician Lauryn Hill talks about the dilemma of life on the masterpiece album “The miseducation of Lauryn Hill” on the song “Everything is everything.” The lyrics state “Everything is everything, what is meant to be will be, after winter must come spring. Change, comes eventually.” She eludes to life as a process, a coming from point A to point B, from uncharted territory to explored and as such we must live naturally and confidently because we are life, like the birds in the sky and the roses in our gardens. Understanding this will enable us to fulfill our destinies. Live like life with incremental growth to flourish. Steer away from control systems attempting to dictate your life, think independently, create order out of your life, the past is history, now we look to the future; tomorrow our seeds will grow and we will be stronger. Be optimistic because the law of attraction holds true, we attract the things we value in our lives. Everything is everything, what is meant to be will be never force things, don’t impose yourself or exert force, the universe, God, or whatever you believe in is on your side. Fundamentally, you already know what to do. You are perfect. You are nature. You are life. You are awe-inspiring and because everything is everything, death is nothing to be feared but the next step, evolution – the change of seasons. Life is a continuous process and we must shed leaves so new ones can grow and flourish and ultimately die. It is a process we all share, our eternal destination. Be authentic, be truthful and natural as life because everything is everything.
Monsters lurk everywhere in the world and it’s hard to spot them. They have learned to camouflage themselves in the darkness, it engulfs and consumes them, blackening their souls turning them into shadows. Analytical Psychologist Carl Jung explains that human beings carry within themselves both elements of the good and bad, that we are both angels and demons, sick, demented, evil, dark, spoiled. Because we live in a world where we have to co-exist to survive, we surpress these undesirable qualities relegating them into the shadows. Unchecked the shadow can grow to consume our personality and rule our subconscious minds enabling us to act unconsciously. Our shadows can turn us into psychopaths who lack empathy and thrive on destruction. The shadow can enable the individual to be narcissistic, egoistic and maniacal. Shedding a light on our dark sides helps in controlling the shadow. Acknowledging you have a dark side keeps the shadow at bay. Life is a balance of both the good and bad, of the light and the darkness. We are both polar extremes of the same spectrum. You are a killer and a murderer, human nature says you are. You might find pleasure in murdering your brother in cold blood. Cain certainly did when he murdered his brother Able to spite God. The murder was premeditated, he felt no remorse, the action liberated him. I know I am bad, I am capable of savagery and genocide. I may even take pleasure in torturing and tormenting you to appease my dark side. Your suffering might even give me comfort. Am I another Jeffrey Dahmer? Would I drug you, strangle you to death, masterbate over your body, have sex with your unconscious body, dissect and sever your body parts, skin the flesh from your bones, cook and eat your body parts for dinner? The capacity for evil in a human being is unfathomable. Maybe I am not familiar with my own darkness. I don’t know what I might do to you in the right circumstances. The story of Jeffrey Dahmer haunts me because he did it time and time again. A serial killer with a death toll of 17. No one was safe, from boys aged 14 to adults aged 33. He butchered his victims, cut off their limbs, drilled holes in their skulls and injected hydrochloric acid, severed their heads and preserved them in the refrigerator, inserted the bones in the oven to burn them and then crushed them with his sledgehammer, he cut his victims into pieces and then boiled them, he cooked his victims and he ate them, he ate them! He used acid and other chemicals to burn the skin of his victims skulls to preserve them. He bleached the skulls and if they were too weak he pulverized them, some he kept and used when he was masterbating. He felt no remorse, it was a compulsion for him, he was conscious of his actions, he knew what he was doing, he wasn’t crazy or diagnosed with some sort of mental illness, he consciously experimented with his victims bodies in his own words to create zombies, he loved doing it, it was his vocation. I don’t want to believe that I am as wicked and evil as Dahmer but I know it’s possible. To deny this is to repress my own darkness and wickedness. To know I am capable of such darkness frightens me. I hope Jung and Freud have an answer for somebody like Dahmer. Maybe it is the ID out of control. Sigmund Freud explained that the ID is the seat of both the repressed material and the drives, to which had been added to the unconscious fantasies and unconscious feelings, notably guilt feelings. Expanding on this idea, Freud states that the mind is divided into 3; into what we call the ID, Ego and the Superego. The Superego is the watchful, judging, punishing agency in the individual. The ID is self-gratifying and amoral and the Ego is the middle ground of the two and strives to be moral. I don’t think Freud and Jung would understand an individual quite as complicated as Dahmer, to try and understand somebody like Dahmer is impossible. I mean he seduced and lured his victims to his place, drugged them, killed them, cut them and sat with the stench of their decomposing bodies. The smell was second nature to him. Sometimes psychology is not enough, perhaps this is a genetic thing, maybe his the exception in the family tree. When he was finally caught he didn’t resist, he was compliant and told the whole truth, every horrific detail, where he hid body parts, how many he had killed, the hearts, biceps, legs he ate, when the killing spree commenced – everything. He knew what he had done was evil and he asked for the death penalty that was not granted because it was banned in his State. He was accepting of who he was, he was not bothered, he was not haunted by ghosts and demons, he was not remorseful, he even had fans who corresponded with him in jail, fans who projected onto him their undesirable feelings, desires and fantasies and he reciprocated back that energy. Jeffrey Dahmer is your definitive example of a monster, he scares me. Maybe I am just scared of myself.
Propelled by a woman’s love. She projected her spirit onto me. She looked at me and dreamt, dreamt of the impossible, dreamt of the mthyical, the mystical. She was intrigued, subjegated, locked in trance. She was hopeful. Her eyes gleamed with excitement. Through me she saw the avenues that where hidden to her by life, by the universe, by God. Her reality was renewed, refreshed and she was rejuvenated. It was like she was a child again, innocent and pure eagerly waiting for Christmas with all its cheer, new clothes and presents. She believed in me like a Christian blinded by faith, for she could see the potential. She was a visionary who understood that to attain success you have to give up what is, to sustain what could be. A long shot? Sure, but in life you have to gamble on yourself. Bet on yourself to beat the odds and get even with the universe. Believe it or not, everything in the world is set up for you to win. Life is all about you, life revolves around you. You are the center of the universe. She projected onto me, bid all her money on me, attached her spirit on me, me – the biggest underdog in the world. Her energy is not misplaced.
I have demon that possess me. It helps me do things that are above me. I have learned to harness the energy and power of this demon within me. When I engage in a creative activity, it takes a hold of me and forcefully pushes me aside. I let it man-handle and dominate me. I let it take control of my body. I let it roam freely in my mind. I find that the demon makes me better in the activities of life even though I am prisoner to it, a slave, a passenger, an accomplice. I don’t know where the energy of the demon comes from, it’s so violent, unsympathetic, unrestricted and chaotic. The demon has explored other domains of my life like a cancer. It now dictates my everyday life, leaving me with time to detach from my body. I often float over my body like a ghost, observing beforehand the routes that will accommodate my structure of being. My demon has allowed me to operate in two realms. It is because of this that I live life with absolute confidence, I know I am not alone. I found that invisible forces are always conspiring in my favor – the only requirement being that I listen to the demon, that I let it consume me and make all the decisions. I found that the universe only wants me to nurture the demon, to take care of it, to stand by it and be proud of it. The demon is that inner voice in all of us. You see I found out that somehow, unconsciously we already know what we want, we are not lost in some maze, we are not the labels the world assigns to us – we are greatness! I found that to get what we are rightly entitled to [greatness] we need to follow our inner voices, our demons.
This has been reflected in history. Legendary artist Leonardo Da Vinci, work only on his paintings when his demon took ahold of him. He was very passionate about his work, he would work on a painting for 7 years incorporating realistic details on his artworks. Commentators often referred to Da Vinci as a procastinator. Because of those comments, history is unfavorable to such commentators. They are simply shunned and relegated to a world of fools. Da Vinci’s artworks are timeless and ranked among the most expensive in the world because of the time he spent working on them, because of the spectacular detail he added, because of the times he didn’t work on the paintings because he couldn’t access his demon. In making the perfect art, all conditions have to be perfect every time – you have to be one with yourself, you need to listen to your inner voice. Urban Poet, Kanye West created the perfect craft in 2010 with the release of “My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy”. He explained that the album took 5000 hours of manpower to create. The album is a burst of creative energy concocted by Kanye West’s demon. The title of the album is so descriptive and animated. The album is a piece of destiny and immortality. Another example of an artist who was consumed by his demon when he was working on his craft is Urban Poet Kendrick Lamar, who created without a doubt the greatest hip-hop album of all time with “To Pimp A Butterfly”. For the creative process of the album, he had to go to South Africa to learn more about apartheid and Nelson Mandela. The album explores human nature, greed, self-gratification and expediency, existentialism, suicide, self-appraisal and self-love, money, the plasticity of the human soul, self-exploration, fulfillment, peace and death. The album has been dubbed a classic and was recognized by the Academy who awarded it 5 Grammy awards. On the last song, “Mortal Man”, in a conversation with hip-hop legend 2Pac, Kendrick Lamar talks about his demon and how the spirits come from nowhere to possess him. He explains that he sometimes doesn’t know what type of energy his going to bring out into the world. 2Pac concurs and seems to understand, he responds that it’s the spirits of the “dead homies” speaking through him and that they are just the outlets. That is a sophisticated analogy considering Carl Jung’s work on the collective unconscious.
I don’t understand women. I tried but it’s too difficult. Maybe my mind is not meant to keep such data. Don’t get me wrong, I can get a woman to bed. That’s not a problem, that’s easy, it is as effortless as breathing. It’s engrained in the human psyche, it is a evolutionary trait, my ancestors could do it, Apes can do it – in fact most life forms can. That’s how nature refreshes things, reproduction. So sex is not really special, not in the grander scale of the Universe. All of life engages in it. It is a requisite for sustaining life. It is elementary to life. No one really has an upper hand because anybody can be seduced. Life is not sex it is a byproduct of sex. Sex is not the goal of life. So you see getting a girl into bed is not difficult. In fact she wants it, she’s programmed by genetics, evolution and other invisible things that constitute and make up reality. Sex is natural so she sees through all your facades, deceptions and ego trips. In fact she encourages everything and plays you like Fifa to score, to get laid. She is using you. A spin to the narrative that men use women for sex. That’s not true, women want sex just as much as men. Man has penis and woman has vagina, we need each other. We are complimentary, YingYang. My intention is to ommit sex out of this picture but I don’t think I can. Simply because I think it’s this sexual orientation that makes girls difficult to understand. Little girls are taught from a very young age that they are “special”, that they are “the prize”. This is enforced through television, music, books, movies and popular culture as a whole. By the time they are able to use Facebook they see this playing out. They get millions of inboxes from guys seeking out their attention and it plays to the narrative that they are indeed “the prize” because it gives them the power to qualify men like; “I’d rather go out with Steve because he has a car, Kevin doesn’t”. Women always want the best pick, the best that they can possibly get. They do this subconsciously and unconsciously but this holds true also for men. Men qualify women based on their looks and certain features they find appealing. These are important considerations for the offspring. Women also do the same but the most important thing for them is competence like; can he take care of me, can he provide for the family? So is their thought process derived from possessions? Are women bloodsuckers? I don’t know but the hypothesis that they are is incomplete because another girl might go out with Kevin dispite the fact that he doesn’t have a car, if you tick the other boxes like competence, confidence and emotional stability, possessions and materials might not be a factor. So it has to be their thought pattern, neuroscience. This is definitely not about psychology. For one Psychology is a science, it is Universal, there might be different cases but the applications and solutions to these cases are more or less the same. Two, Sigmund Freud the godfather of psychology professed to not understand women, he didn’t understand their motivations and why they do what they do. It amazes me because Freud was an intelligent guy, he had all these theories and is a major contributor to field of psychology. But when it came to the motivations and actions of women, he shot blanks. I ask myself what chance do I have, if Freud also didn’t understand. I am not smarter than Freud. I like Neurosciences attempt at understanding women. In a nutshell, it says that everything in a woman’s head is connected, whereas things in men’s head are in compartments, in boxes that you open one at a time and close when you done. Man is more direct and derives his meaning from solving problems. Whereas woman is confused. For woman, “Yes” can mean “No” and “No” can mean “Yes”. They use doublespeak like it’s 1984.This analogy explains the unpredictable nature of women. Sometimes they are volitile and erratic like a Tsunami causing destruction and hell, other times they are calm like the ocean at night. Its difficult to understand women because it requires a lot of attention, something that isn’t a strong point for men. To tell you the truth, I don’t think women even understand themselves. That’s why they always need to talk, to explore and crystallize their thoughts. Women talk about everything and this gives them solice. Still, I think they are closer to the source. I think they are closer to God. They are used more by God to effect changes. My reasoning comes from the work of Carl Jung with his work on the unconscious. Women do things more unconsciously, whereas man is more reflexive, by this I mean man is always trying to instill order. Man is more active, whereas woman is passive – woman just is. This gives her the permission to cause chaos and watch on the sidelines. It gives her the opportunity to be spontaneous. Woman is the accident murderer who doesn’t remember what she did. This explains mans urge to subconsciously please woman. This would explain the million inboxes she gets on her socials. Woman has options because the world reacts to her. That’s a powerful realization. Maybe man is not meant to understand woman. Science has deluded man into thinking that he is God. Perhaps not knowing and not being able to understand is what makes everything worthwhile. Just maybe uncertainty is good, it certainly keeps everyone on their feet.
There’s a beauty in infatuations, they color in the world, they have the ability to put you in a dream-like trance, they can make you fly, they can make you touch the sky and they have the promise of making all of your dreams come true. What is it about love that makes people lose their minds? Is it oxytocin, the love chemical that fosters closer relations with people? Human beings are social beings by trait and we need validation of some sort to survive, to live, to thrive. Love is on the first level on the Maslow hierachy of needs. Then again, love also induces cordizol, the stress hormone for it can leave us anxious, stressed and utterly mortified. Which one is it? You know we get butterflies in our stomachs when we are in love. It sounds like a part of speech but it isn’t, you can literally feel them flapping their wings and flying all about in your stomach. It is a feeling that can make a statue out of you, one that mould you into a perfect sculpture or the perfect snowman because it makes you freeze. It is a wonderful, yet terrifying thing. Infatuations, love can make you feel vulnerable like a big bullseye sign in a dart competition, the soft spot, the flank – it has the capability of taking off your panties and laying you down, down into a deep abyss of apathy and helplessness. So what do you do? Do you sit on the sidelines or do you play ball? Do you tell the one that you love, your crush that you love her and that you can’t live without her?
Infatuations are a product of the mind. They are unconscious features that are repressed within you, your mind. A sort of transference and projection. The spirit or soul is boundless, it has no restrictions or demarcations, however society deems to assign it a role, a gender based on the reproductive organs of the body. So, we indoctrinate the soul into the customs of this specific gender. The other half of the soul we repress, relegate and surpress in the realm of the unconscious. By nature, the human soul is bisexuel. When we grow up, we subconsciously take and adopt desirable qualities or features from the parent inverse our gender. Meaning, that a boy is more likely to marry a girl who has the qualities of her mother and likewise with the girl. It is a subconscious phenomena and we do this because they feel familiar. Sigmund Freud, the godfather of psychology calls this the “Oedipus complex”. He states that the little boy is jealous of his father and wishes to possess his mother but is at the same time frightened of this rival and of castration as a punishment for his incestuous feelings toward the mother but nonetheless, he wishes death onto his father. I think it’s a bit extreme but it deserves a mention. It would also explain why sons are much closer to their mothers and why daughters are far more closer to their fathers. It could also be a Ying-yang thing. I like Carl Jung’s take on this with his work on the Anima and Animus. Carl Jung states that the Anima is the female side of the male that is repressed. And the Animus is the male side of the female that is repressed. According to this, we are likely to choose a partner based on our Anima and our Animus. Of course, parents play a big role in this decision because from a young age, as children that’s where they get their education. The individual bears within himself all kinds of opinions and feelings from his parents and ancestors, but which he believes to be his own. Nietzsche states; In the son becomes conviction what in the father was a lie. Not only fathers, but mothers also determine the conduct of the individual. Every person carries within a picture of women which he acquired from his mother. From this picture, he will be determined to respect or despise women or be indifferent toward them.
Based on this telling evidence, you are crazy, you are not normal. It’s all in your mind. You are suffering from a projection that is making you see things that are not there. You are implanting characteristics and traits to a receiver that is bound to reject them. Psychology tells us that man projects onto woman one of several ready-made pictures that he carries within him; the picture of the mere sexual object, of the femme fatal, of the muse, the virgin-mother, those belonging to what Jung latter called archetypes. The same goes for woman but with different archetypes like the woman to save him and the worshiping woman among others. You think she’s perfect because you don’t know anything about her. You know what your mind is telling you about her and your mind draws data from occurances that transpired or what feels familiar, safe or homely. They say that love is blind and that’s true because when you are in love, you are focused, your brain induces chemicals, your physiology reacts and your subconscious mind fools you. Thus being infatuated with a person is the biggest compliment you can pay. The conscious mind has very little control instead your shadow assumes control. Carl Jung describes the shadow as “The sum of those personal characteristics that the individual wishes to hide from others and from himself.” The shadow lurks in the subconscious and is operant when the conscious mind has lost all sight of reality. This makes sense because when you are infatuated with someone, all you do is think about them. You bill them up to more than they actually are. You see no imperfections and frailties, your reasoning capabilities are out of touch and you think they are the most wonderful person in the world! And maybe they are because truth is a subjective concept and you, well you are crazy but it’s alright.
Tell your crush you love them. This is a test, this is about you. By doing this, it will reveal things you didn’t know about yourself. It is an act that will make you courageous. It will empower you because this comes from your lens, your reality, your map of experience. It is personal and subjective and it will liberate your soul. You crush possess traits and characteristics that you love on a subconscious level, it is like holding a mirror to your soul. Take advantage of it, that’s the universal, God or whatever you believe in telling you to go for it – it is a map of experience that is specifically designed for you. It is an experience, a moment in this vast and expanding universe to know something of substance and value about yourself, your history and even your ancestry line. It is an opportunity to free apathy from your life. It is an opportunity to follow your dreams. It doesn’t matter how you do it, do what comes natural to you, do it so you maximize your returns. Write a poem, sing a song get your creative juices running. Be encouraged, be inspired – this is a big moment in your life. Sure, he/she might reject you and rightfully so because like we covered you are crazy but so is everyone else. This important feat is not about the response you’ll get, it’s about personal growth and self-gratification. It is about understanding of the self. Love is difficult, complicated, unreliable and unstable and you took a risk, you took a chance! Who knows maybe in a perfect world, the person of your affection will return your love. Maybe your life will be perfect. Isn’t it a chance you should take?
What an amazing album. It starts off with a beautiful intro with J. Cole serenading us to the album. The intro is metaphorical in the sense that Cole is also introduced to the world by this voice underlying what life on earth is about namely happiness and freedom – things that people in the world strive for in vain. We can say the voice is mothernature preparing J. Cole to the world. The intro is smooth, patience and nurturing. Then just like that J. Cole is dropped into the world on January 28th. The date signals the date of Cole’s birth. It is not the first time a rapper has done this: Jay Z on the Black Album released in 2004 does this on “December 4th” the song is also preceded by a short and reassuring intro too. On January 28th Cole reintroduces himself to the world by showcasing his skills on the mic setting the tone for the album. The beat is cool and easy-going and the hook is iconic. On the hook he talks about “Don’t give them too much you” and he ends up giving all of himself up in the album. From his earliest years to the Cole who has made it and conquered the world. January 28th is personal and ambitious as he warns everyone and lays claim to the crown proclaiming that he is a God.
After he is born he takes us to his first sexual encounter on Wet Dreamz with a girl that he was in school with. He tells the story off a young Jermaine in pursuit of his first piece of ass. The story-telling is impeccable. He tells the story in the first person, second person and third person. A similar technique he used on “Lost Ones” on his debut album “Cole World: Sideline Story” where he gets his girlfriend pregnant and is not ready for all that responsibility. His girlfriend has her say on the second verse and she explodes with emotions and a lot of hurt telling her cowardly boyfriend that she doesn’t need him and that she’ll raise the baby all alone. Similar to “Lost Ones” – there is a lot of vulnerability on Wet Dreamz as Cole admits to the listener that he is indeed a virgin but she can’t really show that. We also learn on the third verse that the girl was also a virgin. The song is a masterpiece! I love how Cole maintains his “Rapper voice” despite the vulnerability and uncertainty in his lyrics, the contrast in those two elements are amazing.
In his philosophical works Carl Jung talks about the Anima and Animus. He says we are all born neutral in terms of sexual orientation. A hypothesis backed back the godfather of psychology Sigmund Freud who famously stated that the “libido” is bisexual. Meaning we are born in the world with both male and female traits and it’s 50/50. Because there are standards and an order in the world certain traits are repressed to conform to the norm. So for example a young boy is taught from a very young age that sensitivity and emotions are not a very seductive element. Or that a lady doesn’t wear pants or go hunting. Stereotypes often repress this Anima or Animus. Anima according to Carl Jung is the female side to the male and Animus is the male side of the female. Carl Jung explains that we must access our Anima and Animus in order to reach our subconscious mind and that Anima or Animus will give us untold creative power! We see examples of this with Coco Chanel, a designer who created female apparel but got her inspiration from male clothing. She would simply alter man’s clothing and present them as women clothing and she attained great power. We also see this from Urban Artists like Drake who are able to reach into their Anima to create music that is appealing for both male and female. Through the Anima, Drake controls popular culture every time he releases a single or album. Drake redefined what it is to be a Rapper by adding vulnerability and emotions to his songs. J. Cole on “Wet Dreamz” reaches through his Anima and the result is devastating. He created a song that will last forever! A song everyone will be able to connect with through infinity. J. Cole himself is not a stranger to connecting to his Anima and that has given him untold power and set him above everyone else as he often does it with impeccable story-telling and mind-boggling metaphors. There is a misconception about tapping into your Anima or Animus – it does not entail that one is a homosexual. There is no such thing as “homosexual” or “gay” or “lesbian” – only homosexual acts! We are all children of mothernature.
After the masterpiece Cole takes us to his years as an adolescent on “03 Adolescence”. He is growing up in the world and beginning to understand how the world operates. He is very observant and sees the struggle of the people all around him. He is young and energetic and beginning to create and identity for himself. He sees the system as a trap and doesn’t regard 9 to 5 as an option – he would rather push with his homies. We gather from the second verse that he is a very likeable guy as he has a conversation with one of his homies. In a conversation with his friend, he salutes him and tells him that his doing pretty well from himself and he would like to join him. That he needs the money too. His friend disapproves and gives Cole a tongue lashing that he will never forget, it is an honest tongue lashing, one with a lot of love and worship. Cole takes the lashing and commits himself to being the best person he can be – not for himself but for everyone who has a dream but can’t reach to it.
On a “Tale of two Citiez” Cole is slapped with the reality that life is hard. He is now in New York City and everything is fast. He has dreams of making it as a Rapper and becoming rich. But the reality is that he is poor. Nonetheless, he is striving and fighting. The city is so harsh and cold not like Fayetteville where he is from. The hook of the song talks about how he was robbed and that he doesn’t blame them because he understands the city and its rules. That the street is like the jungle and only the strong survive. He internalizes this information to make himself a better person – a more informed person as he strives for his dreams in the big city.
“Fire Squad” is a reflection of how far he has come. At this time he has perfected his craft and in his own mind is the best to ever do it. The song sounds like it too. The beat, the lyrics, the bridge, the bold declaration, the speech, and the iconic “who’s the king?” rhetorical. It is a skillful song that is charismatic, unapologetic and assured. It is bold and in your face. It is easily one of Cole’s best songs ever! It is this song that takes him to Hollywood on “St. Tropez”. St. Tropez is the interlude of the album, the transition in Cole’s life. “St. Tropez” is somber, reflective and nostalgic. It feels like destiny. The lyrics are full of adjectives that are abstract that are backed by melodies and reflective horns and the sound is beautifully intertwined. It feels like a dream about a trip you have been waiting for all your life. A moment created by the stars – the moment when the Universe finally smiles at you and gives you a thumbs up. “He’s on his way, he’s bout to get paid, he’s on his way to Hollywood” I love it!
On “GOMD”, Cole makes it in Hollywood and all his dreams come true but at the cost of his soul as he starts to lose it. He gets tangled in a meaningless world and he doesn’t recognize the person he has become. He reflects on “Love” and “Happiness” the focal point of the intro and decides he now wants to pursue that. That he wants the simple life. For the second time in the album Cole changes and returns to his roots. He now sees everything clearer and is knowledgeable. Hollywood is to thank for that. Hollywood was the catalyst. Hollywood saved him. He maintains the same tone until the end of the album.
Now Cole is in pursuit for Love and Happiness. On “No Role Modelz” he meets girls that don’t fit the profile. He meets girls that are shallow, narcissistic and materialistic. Knowing Hollywood so well he cites it and blames “Reality Shows”. He explains that this is the life that these women have chosen and trying to save them is a waste of time. It is the make-up of their fabricated and plastic psychology. Cole explains that they are empty and being with them won’t make you happy. A theory he knows firsthand from his transition to “Hollywood Cole” to J. Cole as exhibited on “GOMD”. Cole doesn’t feel petty for them and moves on with his life.
He decides to rekindle an old relation on “Hello” but finds out that she has already started a new life. Cole tries to reach out but to no avail. The hook is an emphasis, a cry out for attention and it is repetitive and effective in creating a tone full of melancholy. The dark chords of the piano also emphasize and tie the mood together. What now for Jermaine Cole? He decides to redirect his love on “Apparently” and talks about his mother. The chords are striking and up tempo. It is a sweet and grand gesture that is heartfelt and full of love. He is reflective and honest.
On “Love Yourz” Cole comes to the realization that everything in the world is temporarily. That everything fades and no amount of material can make you happy. He recommends being content with what and who you are. He advises the listener to practice love in their loves. To be around people who genuinely love you. He recommends taking charge of your life. He advises the listener to stop comparing and live life the best way you can. He is philosophical in this message and it ties the whole album up. He extends this message on “Note to Self” when he states “Nothing matters, you’ll see in the end”. He uses the existentialist approach in conveying this message. He gave us his whole life in 13 songs. The album is philosophical – it teaches you how to live. It is art. It is tied together. It is forever!
Lord Jesus Christ is one of the few people in history who had a consciousness that calibrated at 1000 energy level. He was an enlightened man. He preached the word of love and peace. Even when death stared him right in his face, he embraced it and mastered the art of dying. On the cross, when he was tortured and beaten ceaselessly he prayed for the forgiveness of man – he prayed for mankind. He didn’t feel sorry for himself. He didn’t ask God why me. He didn’t ask for God to save him, he never asked God to show himself. He was accepting of his fate. I think that’s remarkable. He had reason. He had willingness. He was wise. Socrates another enlightened individual who was killed for supposedly corrupting the youth of Greece shared the personality traits of Jesus Christ. When he was trialed, he refused to defend himself. He just let things be. He had a willingness about his fate. He was accepting. He had reason and he perfected the art of dying. He was at peace with everything. He was happy and ready to die. He had done everything he could do for humanity. He shared his wisdom. He made people aware and self-critical of themselves. He got people thinking and talking about their ideas. He knighted Plato and Aristotle with his wisdom and knowledge and still had the presence of mind to state that the wise man is the man who admits that he does not know anything. Incredible insight! He also preached love and peace for humanity. It seems as though humanity has a problem with enlightened figures.
Life is energy. Life is information. It seems as though Jesus Christ and Socrates had the right frequency. They were one with life. They were grounded in the reality of life. Psychoanalyst Carl Jung stated that the “psyche” which means spirit or soul comprises of the consciousness, personal unconsciousness and collective unconsciousness. Collective unconsciousness is the spirit of everything in life, it is the pulse of life, it is the culture and period we are born in to, it is the different ecosystems of the world, it is our collective consciousness as life that is hidden but dictates everything that we do unconsciously every minute and moment of life. Figures like Jesus Christ and Socrates understood this fundamental aspect of the reality of life and that enabled them to have courage. Through courage, they learned to stay neutral and open, seeing and experiencing life with new eyes every day. Now that they had courage and neutrality they had the confidence of partaking in life, they had the willingness to live and share their experiences with life. They grew to understand and accept being with all of its conditions and structures. Through acceptance they learned how to reason. Through reason they discovered the most fundamental aspect of life – namely love, for love nourishes the soul of the universe. Love has a positive frequency that exuberates when emitted. Love unites. Love is the one single force that has the power to change the world. They understood that only love brings true joy and fulfillment in life. Through love and joy, you can find peace. Peace is a beautiful phase to reach because it entails that you are one with the pulse of life. Peace entails freedom. At the conscious level of peace, death is not repressed but rather in the open. You are aware that it might happen any day and you are content with it. Peace is an encounter with pure and unadulterated happiness. And through peace, you find enlightenment. The world follows people like Lord Jesus Christ, Socrates and Lord Buddha among others because of their status of being enlightened – and it’s useful because they make us better individuals, they bring us solace, they lift the burden of existence from our shoulders. Their lives are dedicated to the salvation of all humanity.
Existence is a burden. Existence is a challenge. Life consists of suffering, boredom and death. This is a fact, it is a fate we all share. Depression and nihilism are and have always been the epidemics of the world. We see this in the 20th century, where people like Adolf Hitler, Joseph Stalin and Mao ran totalitarian regimes. It was bad. We came close to extinction. People were killed for entertainment, for fun, to generate statistics. Joseph Stalin, once stated “one death is a tragedy, but a million deaths a statistic.” These were men with no moral compasses. They tortured human beings for experiments. They tortured human beings for their amusement. They were men overly intoxicated with power. They were egotistical and narcissistic men. They were men with deep underlying insecurities. The world was run by Pride and pride calibrates at a conscious energy level of 175. Pride is dangerous. Pride is critical. Pride is blind. Pride is Shame. Pride is guilt. Pride is confusion. Pride is fear. Pride is hatred. Pride is hopelessness. Pride is falsehood. The lack of a campus resorts in a man operating in the lower levels of consciousness. Life starts when you operate at a conscious energy level of 200. The level of 200 is courage. Below the conscious energy level of 200, is all things run by the amygdala, it is survival and fear driven. War generated this atmosphere of dog eat dog world – a world where nobody was save.
It seems as though Christianity is a good idea. Lord Jesus Christ dedicated his life for the betterment of humankind. He was an enlightened man and his ideas calibrated at 1000. Christianity managed to do the impossible. It proclaimed that every man is equal regardless of status positioning, wealth, gender and race. It gave women rights in a world where they had none. Somehow, it managed to level us all. It preached the importance of love and the idea of sharing. The concept of sharing is a very sophisticated idea for it teaches one about the delay of gratification. The idea that if I had two pieces of steaks and only needed one, I can give one steak to my neighbor with the realization that one day in the future my neighbor might give me a piece of steak when I had none. It is a concept that teaches you how to negotiate with time. Through the crucifixion of Christ, it taught us that life is suffering, it taught us about love and gave us the assurance that everything will be alright. It taught us peace and taught us how to embrace life and death. It even created a Utopia, a heaven to help us with the process of dying and to give solace. Christianity taught us how bring our hopes and dreams into the world by means of praying. Praying is another sophisticated concept where you concentrate all your forces and energy into something in hopes of bring it to life. Energy is involved in the process of praying so it brings it out into the universe, into life, the world. Because you prayed for it, it exists in the world – all you need to do is to put some more energy into it and it will reflect on to the world. Praying is the law of causality – isn’t it a beautiful concept? Christianity and the ideas of Lord Jesus Christ should be practiced for the improvement and perfection of one’s soul. Christianity is an extremely subjective practice. Its insistence is on the spirit of the individual. If a few individuals are regulated and fulfilled, it generates a ripple effect by virtue of association making everybody happy and fulfilled. A positive wave length is contagious!
There is a story in the bible about brothers Able and Cain. They are the children of Adam & Eve. The first humans ever. Adam and Eve were created by God whereas Able and Cain are the byproducts of Adam and Eve. It tells the story about how God was happy about one brother’s (Able) contribution and unhappy about another’s (Cain). Cain does everything to impress God but he does it in vain as he is met with Gods disapproval. Whereas his brother Able impresses him with ease, without much effort. This makes Cain grow resentful and angry towards his brother Able. Worse, is that Able is genuinely a good person, everyone likes him and women always want to be around him. Cain cannot find fault with him, his authentic and perfect and that makes him grow even more resentful and angry towards his brother. His resentment and anger leads him to Satan and he is drawn to Hell. Cain overpowered by emotions of envy, jealously and anger decides to kill Able. He does it to spite God, to spite the world by killing everything he wants to be. How did things become so rife? Everyone has a contract with God and you fulfill your contract by being you, by doing the things that come natural to you, by being authentically individualistic. By being yourself, you honor God and it pleases him, he becomes happy about your contributions. Cain was so envious of his brother that he didn’t honor his contract with God. He was not an individual. He lacked a self-campus. He wanted to be like his brother and that displeased God because he didn’t create a replica of Able. God also wanted Cain to be himself, to self-actualize, to impose himself on the world and show his true character and virtues. God wanted Cain to honor him by becoming himself. However, Cain’s heart was tainted and impure. Once he started having resentful thoughts about his brother, they took a life of its own. By continuously having these thoughts, he fed the beast until it lead him to a point of no return, Satan – Hell. Satan is not a red beast with horns on his forehead just like how Hell is not a place filled with fires and demons. Hell is a state of mind and you get there by feeding negative emotions. Negative emotions are not conducive to life. They are destructive and inhospitable. One must always aspire to go to Heaven. Heaven is a fertile place for growth. Love lives in heaven and there’s progression and growth. Heaven is stimulating and conducive. Heaven is the state of mind we should all strive to be in.
The two brothers were in two completely separate wavelengths. They were in two different worlds. One brother was in Heaven while the other was in Hell. One brother was with God while the other was with Satan. It is a useful story because it educates us about envy and self-actualization. Envy calibrates lower than 200 energy level. It is primitive and destructive. Envy is vain and self-sustaining, it feeds off other negative emotions and energy levels. Envy is unintelligible and insecure. Envy is prideful and hopelessness. Self-actualization on the other hand is above the conscious energy level of 200. Self-actualization is courage. Self-actualization is learning. Self-actualization is willingness. Self-actualization is reason. Self-actualization is freedom – the ability to embrace God and thank him for the gifts that he has bestowed upon you. Self-actualization is enlightenment, the process of knowing your purpose in life and fulfilling it. Self-actualization is the most beautiful thing God has given to us. We should strive to become who we could be and negate the external factors of the world. We should be truthful to ourselves at all times. That’s how we give praise to God. That’s how we show him that we are grateful for the gift of life. That’s where Christianity comes in, God has given us his son Jesus Christ to teach us about the virtues of life. He gave us Jesus Christ to enlighten us, to make us pure, to give us hope, and to complete that void in our hearts. I am not talking about organized religion, organized religion has made a mockery of the Christian doctrine, it has polluted and stained its ideas, it is the reason for the nihilism and depression in our world, it is the reason we are devoid of goals! I am talking about subjective Christianity, Christianity for your spirit and soul as an individual, for yourself. I am talking about Christianity as an ideal we should strive for!
Energy Level Calibrations: Energy Level: 20 Shame Energy Level: 30 Guilt Energy Level: 50 Apathy Energy Level: 75 Grief Energy Level: 100 Fear Energy Level: 125 Desire Energy Level: 150 Anger Energy Level: 175 Pride Energy Level: 200 Courage Energy Level: 250 Courage Energy Level: 310 Willingness Energy Level: 350 Acceptance Energy Level: 400 Reason Energy Level: 500 Love Energy Level: 540 Joy Energy Level: 600 Peace Energy Level: 700 – 1000 Enlightenment
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