Enthusiasm is what keeps the world spinning. The will to do something and do it great.
Passion is not a prerequisite, it can be turned on and off like switch. Connecting you to your dreams like a neural link, illuminating your perception of reality.
Enthusiasm is what gets you to stand-up, to fight, to believe, to dare, to live life.
Enthusiasm is a state of creation, the Lego blocks of destiny.
Enthusiasm is to strive, to be hopeful about the future.
Enthusiasm is to give everything you have got. No excuses, I am accountable for my life, I am accountable for my decisions.
Enthusiasm is being a dreamer.
Enthusiasm is being crazy, at least for a while. Advancements of humanity are credited to madmen.
Enthusiasm is to take many shots, keep shooting, that’s how you get goals.
I had a foe disguised as a friend who spread rumors about me and I happened to be in attendance when his life crumbled and so I smiled at his misfortunes, it was a case of schadenfreude and I reveled in his suffering. He deserved it, two timing son of a bitch, why would I feel sorry for a monster? Crocodile tears don’t work on a porn star. I know I am evil but it’s a property and not a character like how De Niro paints houses and does his own carpentry. Let him suffer, that’s my official commentry. Body and bones decomposing in the cemetery. I have love but I can also practice hate, pulling heads out like masturbate. I have dark and impure thoughts. I hear voices in my head to push buttons and pull triggers. Killing in cold blood doesn’t lurk in my shadows, it’s illuminated by the sun. I am not a psychopath and indifferent to people’s suffering, but my schadenfreude episode felt good. I am emphatic but don’t piss me off for I can switch like a light, illuminating your ignorance and dimming out your sight. The smile is a facade and the silence a warning, you don’t know me. I am the offspring of Adam and Eve, directly related to Cain and Able, dangerous like a distorted label. I know I am evil, I am disturbed, I fantasize about murder and splattered brains. I pump out ice-cold blood in my vains. I am cold blooded and calculating, my brothers Cain. I might torture you and discard your pain.
Would you date a porn star? You know the woman whose taken cream to the face from multiple dicks. Dicks in the ass and piss dwindling from the throat making its way inside intestines. Oh, you a nasty bitch aren’t you? Pop that for big daddy! Would you be with a Porn star? A woman who has a body count carrying the essence of the phallus ancestry line. You thought you had Penis envy but now you have a woman who’s seen it all. Like “average penis fits in most pussies, big dicks are the real problem”. Oh really? Tell me more. Would you be with a porn star? Someone who has been choked into unconsciousness and passed around like a joint, smoking the character out of her soul and watching it dissipate like smoke. Daddy issues and expedient, victim-mentality and no self worth. Don’t fool yourself, it’s not in the past, the internet is forever and humanity is going to be jerking off to your girl till infinity and beyond. Would you be with a Porn star, someone to fulfill your wildest erotic fantasies? Someone to busk in your fetishes like an enthusiast. Someone who blows like a dryer. Someone to partake in your butt games. Would you be with a Porn star, a sex object for the gratification of your desires, a woman who belongs to all. Gangbang not a problem, as long as you let her call a friend. Would you be with a porn star, a woman whose attained mastery in all the positions, spreading it like butter so you can insert the ham. Moaning hard as a motherfucker so you are viewed as the man.
I say fuck bitches, no exceptions. Just when I start to like you, you go and fuck my best friend. Damn! You a special kind of serpent. Slithering your way into my life. Miss Mamba, cold blooded and heartless. You can never trust these bitches, they screw like rubber cause they are nuts. They never even yours anyways, just your turn like a blunt. Smoke good and pass like a drive by. Penetrating and piercing my heart with bullets dipped in cyanide. Killing all the love I had for you with your poisonous deceptions and disguises. Masks that conceal your true intentions and motivations. You slipped and landed on his dick, please. I say fuck bitches and remain autonomous like a Ruler. No attachments like a stapler and stay between these thighs, penetrating and breaking these walls like Jericho. Don’t let them break the code though, it’s no commitments like freelance. That’s her only chance. I say fuck bitches, I say this figuratively and literally. You just an option in a galaxy of stars. Get this pussy like a douche and bounce off like round ball. Hit and go, keep moving like a train en route your destination – heaven through her bushy lips. Don’t give them the satisfaction, private, your mission is done; you served your kind well. Bluetick the bitch and target another, it’s all a game. Play to win with minimal resources deployed for the mission. I say fuck bitches and leave your feelings at the gate. You are here for a job, commit to the task at hand, do it well, be professional, stay protected, no bitch is worth sickness nor death. Sow your royal seeds, Akeem. Don’t give your heart to no bitch, fuck bitches my friend – that’s their only utility. What’s the alternative? Don’t be ridiculous, she don’t love you. She got hard dick in her right now!
In 2019 film maker Todd Phillips released his psychological thriller classic movie titled “Joker” to much acclaim. The movie gathered 11 nominations from the Academy including Best Picture and Best Director for Todd. The film’s lead Joaquin Phoenix earned the accolade for Best Actor for his efforts. His performance was a masterclass on acting. The movie centers around the subject of nihilism. Arthur Fleck is a man in his late 30’s living with his mother in the hellish city of Gotham. When he was young he suffered a head trauma injury that affected the neuro-circuitry in his brain resulting in a cognition impairment that enables him to laugh uncontrollablely without his conscious doing. This mental disorder isolates him from society and it results in him being an outcast. With this being his default, he sinks into an abyss of apathy and depression. His loathes his life and fantasizes about and death. His hatred of life ultimately leads to nihilism and with that he begins killing people for the sake of it. The killing spree commenced when he shot dead three stockbrokers after they were assaulting him in the train. The action to kill those 3 stockbrokers comes after a history of apathy when confronted with life and people beating him up because his a “freak”. The killings change his outlook on life and apathy disappears forever, he finds a new release and for the first time in his life he encounters happiness, although sadistic, it comes from the action of interacting with the world and taking charge. Nietzsche states: “When an individual no longer feels like they are the collaborator let alone the center of becoming nihilism becomes a very real possibility.” This is what happens in the movie as Arthur’s dreams and prospects of being a stand-up comedian die and with the realization that his whole life has been a lie. With the quote of the movie he states before killing his mother: I always thought my life was a tradegy but now I realize it’s a comedy. This quote signals Arthur’s nihilism – the inference that there is no meaning at all. With this his reality changes and the mood of the film also changes from dark heavy burdensome strings serving as the score of the movie to uplifting golden soundtracks and Arthur dancing along with a big authentic smile on his face. It is as if his nihilism has triggered the button to live a fulfilling life. From this movie we gather that life is not fair. It paints Arthur as a victim and he is because his been dealt a bad hand from his inception. The movie is emotive, from the visuals, the setting, the camera techniques, the film score, soundtracks and the actors. This is a very good movie and will generate a cult following based on the subjects it explored. No one can really and fully prepare you for life. Nothing can prepare you for how difficult it is. How repetitive and passive it can get and how you can betray your heart with conscious intentions. Nihilism lurks in the shadows of every human being and if you give it an audience, it can consume you whole and lead you straight to hell.
Life is difficult. You wake up one day and the world tells you that you need to get a job and shed away your individuality. After all, you were in school for more than12 years, you had enough time to prepare yourself, you should know what you want to do. That’s how the world operates and so you get a job. You work hard to get a promotion but you are overlooked because the bosses niece just graduated. Feeling dejected but optimistic about the future, you keep your head down and keep working hard. Finally after 4 laborious years, you finally get ahead and earn a promotion. It’s that job you have always wanted and it comes with an office and a secretary. It’s bliss and you can see yourself working at this company for a long time and so you prepare. You have children, get married and buy a house with trees and high fences in the suburbs. You purchase that German car that you have always wanted and life is perfect. Tradegy strikes and the whole world goes into a recession resulting in you getting laid off from your job. But at least you get a settlement cheque and decide that you are going to start a business. It’s a good idea and you are excited at the prospect of being your own boss. The business doesn’t share the same enthusiasm though and fails spectacularly. The house and the German car gets repossessed due to failure of payment and you get blacklisted by the credit bureaus. Your wife divorces you without your knowledge and fleas with the children leaving you with nothing. Aged 44 with no savings and prospects do you have it in you to move on? Do you have it in you to start over? You thought you had forever and now you have nothing. You can’t even get a decent job because you have been blacklisted. What now? The future looks bleek. The world let you down. The order of the world is a lie, everything is a lie! To add insult to injury, the world doesn’t need you anymore, you are too old, young blood is coming into the fold and your are deemed useless, a fossil that occupied the land in the times of dinosaurs. Surely death is a better alternative to life because you have got nothing to live for. That’s life, sometimes bad things happen for no apparent reason and there’s simple nothing you can do.
What is the protocol for helping someone with suicidal thoughts? Is there something that can be done from preventing the inevitable? How do you persuade someone who suffers from nihilism that they have something to live for? It is a very difficult question. One that religion can’t solve because people who suffer from nihilistic thoughts don’t believe in anything. Besides religion regulates morality and people suffering from nihilism are victims of the very same morality. Just maybe nothing can be done, nihilism is the devils den, it is the place of no return. Not even Todd gave us an antidote in his movie. However, being an optimist I have a solution. Gratitude. Gratitude is positive energy and it enables one to reflect about life. Gratitude has reason. Gratitude is patience. Gratitude is life. Gratitude helps you see past today and makes you see tomorrow. Gratitude gives you courage, it is hopeful and at the same time provides assurity. Gratitude opens your heart. Gratitude gives you a reason to live, it gives you a reason to inquire and ultimately be a better person. For the gentleman who lost his job, wife and kids; the children will grow up and reunite with him. He can get a better confidant and work his way up again. He has reason to live. He should be grateful for the trails and tribulations and aspire to be better. Gratitude is what makes life worthwhile. Gratitude is the secret to a fulfilling life. Gratitude stops nihilism and gives reason. It is because of that that one should always be grateful. Grateful for our families, our friends and the fact that we have a roof over our head. Gratitude puts things into perspective. Gratitude is the only thing that matters if you are to live a fulfilling life.
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